highlights of 2009

Looking forward

to paradise.. listening back to Sade's Paradise, feel so good, remembered that my brother bought the CD when he came back from Japan for his study break. but the song i love most is Nothing Can Come Between Us. Now after so long, Sade came back with a new album, Soldier of Love, must get this album soon. love her music. looking forward to it.

Unconditional Love

When I was a kid (teenager), my big sister gave me two cassettes when shes back to visit (back then we used cassettes) from her university, 1. Tina Turner - Break Every Rule and 2. Cyndi Lauper-True Colors. they were my favorite albums to listen to at that time. And after that, when Cyndi Lauper released her next album A Night To Remember, i guess this is the best album in the 80's for me. It was released in 1989 and i was 14. 

So, 20 years later, im back listening to this album and its as refreshing as the first time. I love several tracks in this album. The haunting I Drove All Night, the torturous blues of My First Night Without you and self-emancipation of Heading West. I have to highlight that Diane Warren wrote a song on this album called I Don't Want To Be Your Friend is as tragic as it sounds. I guess this album was released in a dark period of Cyndi's life. But my most favorite is Unconditional Love, which is tender and i so can relate to , for its shows the love of my mother towards me, and generally mothers to their child. for I have so many mistakes while growing up but the love never stops from my mother (Mak) ....no matter what. 

"When I see you, I remember.. Unconditional love... "

love, f

when it's time to move on

How do you do it? For me, i always listen to a song. But a pray to god will help a lot more. Somethings we just need to forget or let go something bad or good or something you just do not know how to handle. still it depends on how I want and think it would help me. Always believe its greener on the other side. 

H.A.T.E.U. - having a typical emotional upset

written by M. Carey

No need to call my phone cause I changed my number today,

A matter of fact, I think I'm moving away, 

Sorry the frustrations got me feeling a way,

And I just keep having one last thing to say,

And I just want to hold you,

touch you,

feel you,

be near you, 

I miss you...

I'm tired of trying to fake through,

but there's nothing I can do,

but I can't wait to hate you...

best,

f

you read them once, you can read them again

my big sister, oceangirl highlighted this poem to me,  she and her husband recited it to some people on an annual dinner and everybody loved it cause they can so relate to it. i guess everybody can. the poem is simple, and yet strong on sending a message to us. for me, it questioned me where is my waiting place, will it be the right one and who will wait for me and who/what am i waiting for? and also, how do i get there? 

written by Dr Seus

Do you dare to stay out? Do you dare to go in?

How much can you lose? How much can you win?

And if you go in.. you should turn left or right? or... right and three quarters?

Or.. maybe, not quite?

You can get so confuse that you'll start to race down long wiggled roads at a break necking pace

Headed, I fear toward a most useless place 

the waiting place, for people just waiting

Waiting for a train to go, or a bus to come

or a plane to go, or the mail to come

or the rain to go, or the phone to ring

or the snow to snow, or waiting around for a yes or no

or a string of pearls, or a pair of pants

or a wig with curls

or another chance...

hugs, f

inspiration

starting off, with a thank you to my sis, babypose who inspires me to begin this. so id like to share a poem that my cousin read to her during her wedding this year, and the best thing is it mentions her name. 

its written by Rebecca Helman. 

"As a flower in the garden,

bending toward the sun,

unfolds its tiny petals,

one, by one, by one...

So faith expands its beauty,

until at last it grows,

into life's lasting flower,

The heart's fair-perfect-rose."

love,

f